A bundle of burden
I can't believe I've never read 'Little Women' before this...where HAVE I been???
I'm halfway there...please please don't tell me how Beth dies...she dies right?
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I'm in the middle of the City of Destruction....eerily quiet and deserted. Can't seem to see the way out, piles of rubbles everywhere....hazy and the smoke hurts my eyes. It's even more difficult to breathe, the air is so thick with dust and toxic gases...and what's that rotten stench? I puked...and puked all my guts. Disgusting...
As I lean forward to feel the stone in front I felt sharp stabs at the back, multiple stabs....sharp, piercing stabs. What (or who) the hell was that??? Thought I heard familiar voices laughing...maybe I'm paranoid. AM I?
My bundle of burden is getting heavier these days...thought I've unloaded the lot...but they keep piling in. I put some spring in my steps....climbing up and up...all the while thinking of the Celestial City build up in my mind.
WHy do we do that?? carry our burden and go through hell hoping the piles of crap we carry will help build our life in the future? Why don't I just let go of the bundle and run away? DON'T go to City of Destruction...find the happy place...LIVE NOW! is that impossible?
I'm still carrying it...not running..still climbing....holding on....maybe the Celestial City does exist....
There is no secret ingredient...
There's something about watching the same cartoon three times, and twice on the same day...
I LOVE KUNG-FU PANDA!!!I watched it the first time on the 1st day it was released in the land of Merlion. Then, my dad has been saying he wanted to watch that movie, so I bought the DVD for him. Managed to persuade my aunties to watch it today after lunch, so I sat with my two aunties and watched it for the second time...
"THERE'S NO CHARGE FOR AWESOMENESS OR ATTRACTIVENESS!" -PO-Then tonight....right now...my parents are watching the same DVD. It's still funny!! I love Jack Black!! He's so funny!! his personality and humour can really be seen in Po - the big fat panda :p
Now...watching it for the third time...haha... (
I need to get a job...FAST!!)
"ONE OFTEN MEET HIS DESTINY ON THE VERY PATH HE TAKES TO AVOID IT..." - MASTER OOGUAY-I sure hope I'm not running away or avoiding something...more like searching for something. Hmm...I sense melancholic thought coming...
stop stop stop"YESTERDAY IS HISTORY, TOMORROW IS MYSTERY...AND TODAY IS A GIFT... THAT'S WHY IT'S CALL THE PRESENT..." -MASTER OOGUAY-For the fear of becoming tv/movie/cartoon freak....I'm gonna stop memorising the cartoon lines.
I'm going back to bed and finish the book 'Eat, Pray, Love : One woman search for everything' by Elizabeth Gilbert. Full of wit and genuine wisdom from experience...I love this book so much that this is the second time I'm reading it this year. It's spooky...it's like reading about myself in the past and present....and maybe I'm reading my future too. Not saying that I'll leave my job and meditate for months in Indian ashram, learning Yoga and becoming vegetarian...and I pray I won't have to go through divorce and depression(I don't think I'm strong enough for that)...although I do really fancy taking off to Italy learning Italian, eating pasta, pizza and cheese...and maybe get myself a yummy Italian eye candy...hmmm...that's a thought... It's just the author really understand how vulnerable some woman can be, thinking that she is strong and independent, and knows what she wants in life...only to find that she is not all that.
To find balance in life, to find peace within myself...that's what I need now. Elizabeth Gilbert (the author) went to Italy, India and Indonesia to find her peace...which she did...
Marvellous and clever...this memoir. It really makes me want to EAT, PRAY AND LOVE!!! and TRAVEL!!! more and more!!!
Well...I'm no Elizabeth Gilbert...but this is my own journey...Scotland-Singapore-? what next?
Mosquitoes feast
I don't know if I just emit the smell of fresh sweet blood or something...I have been feasted on by mosquitoes morning day and night!! For the last 4 days!!! I have red blotches all over and they are insanely itchy. Maybe it's the all the chocolates and cakes and sweeties that I've been having lately...
Been fluey for a couple of days now..I hope it's not dengue...*touch wood* Fever...a bit, headache...yes, sore throat...yes, rash...no, bleeding...no, dizzy...a bit today...I'll give it a couple more days and see. To add more misery to my poor skin...Abubu the cat have been going crazy and super duper hyper when playing that he will happily jump on, scratch and bite anything, anybody and any parts of your body(or even head) that moves...crazy cat...but very cute, which means that he gets away with murder.
I have been shooting pictures at home for a couple of days now. Micro pictures of my dad's plants outside...a dear friend gave me this ring thingy to use with my Nikon to shoot micro pictures. It's suppose to enable me to get closer with my subject without losing focus. I'm just-born-new-baby to using DLSR camera and I haven't the faintest idea how to use photoshop, apart from some little things my friend attempted to teach me.
I love the micro ring thingy....I can get sooo close to the subjects!!
I wanted to post the photoshop-ed pictures here....but somehow the images are not saved under jpeg...hmmmm....I'll have to work this out. I'll need to look through photoshop online tutorials..bleeghhh...
And I also need to find a software to watermark my photos. The last time I posted photos, I found someone else using MY PHOTO in their blog!! not that I'll make any money from that particular shot, but ssheezzz..it's mine.
Anyways...I'll just put on a couple of raw images here...
This is actually some moss on my dad's bonsai plant pot...
This is just about size 1:1 photo I think...not really sure if it's in focus
Practice...practice....
I would love to put more photos, but somehow my laptop is superslow and I'm on the verge of chewing off the cable now...I really need to fix this laptop...sigh...if only I can find the recovery CD...bleghh...
*Am going for a pedicure and massage tomorrow...yay!!*
