Sick sick....
I've never fallen sick as often as I had since I started working in this effing country. When I was in UK never once I went to see my GP accept once to get my hepatitis vaccination. Sigh..sigh...it's all the stress and fatigue being overworked by these monsters. Now I call in sick at least once a month, and I really couldn't help it cos if I don't I'll be worked to death. I mean, I can still work with the flu and cough and runny nose and all...but with non-stop diarrhoea and vomitting? how do they expect me to do my work?
My immune system now is at its lowest point that its ever been. So is my motivation and passion for work and life. Question....what life?!
To stay for more than a few more months here would mean probably turning into heartless, soulless being or just simply committing suicide - mentally and literally. LOL
*walked all the way to work today, like I always have....trying hard not to puke or barf in the middle of the road....went straight to the hospital loo....called the consultant and told her I'm sick and going home...the first thing she said was..."sigh...go straight to A&E and get ur MC, hand over your cases to xyz"...ok...thanks for your concern....*
Shine
Anger has consumed me these few days, I explode with just any stupid little raise of the eyebrow or smirk or comment....this is what they have reduced me to.
Breathe woman.....breathe.....On the bright side....I WILL be having my well-deserved, long-fought-for 6 days holiday!!! yes yes...I'm going to go away...awayy....and I'm going to have a good time.
I like this song and the lyric is really lovely...
SHINE by Anna LanickOh the night makes you a starAnd it holds you cold in its armsYou`re the one to whom nobody verses I love youUnless you say it firstSo you lie there holding your breathAnd its strange how soon you forgetThat you`re like starsThey only show up when it`s darkCause they don`t know their worth
And I think you need to stop following misery`s leadShine away shine away shine awayIsn`t it time you got over how fragile you areWe`re all waitingWaiting on your supernovaCause that`s who you areAnd you`ve only begun to shine
There are times when the poets and pornstars align andYou won`t know who to believe inWell that`s a good time to be leavin`And the past knocks on your doorAnd throws stones at your window at 4 in the morningWell maybe he thinks it`s romanticHe`s crazy but you knew that before
And I think you need to stop following misery`s leadShine away Shine away Shine awayIsn`t it time you got over how fragile you areWe`re all waitingWaiting on your supernovaCause that`s who you areAnd you`ve only begun to shine
Yeah you`ve only begun to shineWon`t you shine shine shine shine over shadowShine shine shine shine over shadowShine shine shine shine over
And I think you need to stop following misery`s leadShine away Shine away Shine awayIsn`t it time you got over how fragile you areWe`re all waitingWaiting on your supernovaCause that`s who you areAnd you`ve only begun to shine
Yeah you`ve only begun to shineYeah you`ve only begun to shineYeah you`ve only begun to shine
Just ranting
I've had it with these people. This island offers great oppotunities to grow, to learn...but my goodness the people here are just insufferable. NO respect for other people, no sense of humanity, they can't think for others at all. All they care is about money, name, recognition...to the point of being stupid and shameless...(I really meant stupid as in bang-head-on-the-wall STUPID)
There's no way I can understand how they think...they think alike...they don't mind being treated as slaves, they act like one. Yes of course they moan and complain, but no one does anything about it. It's like they are meant to do it and there is nothing wrong with the system.
Wake up people!!! Think!!! you've got brains!!!
I've been patient, tolerant...hoping that it'll get better...but no..no it doesn't. You don't have any rights here...no right for your own leave, your own days off....if you get your time off....it feels like they are doing you a favour, you should be on your hands and knees thanking them for their kind hearts relieving you from your time of slavery...while not forgetting that you are leaving the rest of the pack of slaves working forever more taking your share of the work ( guilt...guilt...guilttt.....). It doesn't matter if you've been working everyday of the whole month, with NO DAYS OFF!! No...you are expected to remain happy and blissfully satisfied with the crap they throw at your face. YOU HAVE NO CONTROL OVER YOUR OWN LIFE!!
I've had it. I'm not meant to work like this. They are a drone of stupid worker bees, working for the queen bee ( read *** ***** *****). What a bunch of losers...
Not only they don't use their brain, they are rude, ungrateful, no sense of humour, boring, selfish, backstabbers, hypocrits... just generalising here, but thats how most of them are.
I've opened my mouth..I gave them a piece of my mind...just a small little piece...and I've been marked...sort of...I guess they are not used to the worker bees thinking and having their own mind, and actually opening their mouth and saying "NO" to their face. "EAT MY SHORTS!" comes to mind...hah!
Just another few months...maybe 3 or four...then I'll leave this shitty country.
Where life and freedom actually means something....
