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I know...I know...was supposed to be working on my elective project. *defensive* . Just a short one yah...:p

Well...my brain just won't cooperate with me. It's refusing anything to do with medicine..anything academic. Must be all the sun back in Malaysia...cooked my brain somehow...roasted or steamed..haha...isk..no laughing matter..this is getting ridiculous.

Tomorrow...Merdeka Day. I really wish I'm in Malaysia right now. I really miss Malaysian celebration...doesnt matter if it's Merdeka Day, Raya, Chinese New Year, Gawai etc...there's somthing about Malaysian celebration that makes you feel you want to celebrate everything even though you don't have anything to do with it.

Tonite...Malaysia will be celebating it's Independance day...I won't be reflecting on what Merdeka means for Malaysia and the people. I'm sure we all know what it means and what it does not mean. And for me, I am grateful and proud to be Malaysian. Shamefully, I admit there were times when I wished that I'm born somewhere else...I dunno what I was looking for back then. I went through a period of my life where I condemned everything about Malaysia...I still do that sometime...but hey...I'm just human, OK. I love my country, yes I do. I love it more than I did last time...I guess being away from home for so long...and when I went through the hard patch of my life..not having my family and more friends to support me, physically with me...I missed the familiarity and the comfort it has provided me for the first 20 years of my life. Now I really understand what this pepatah means "hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu dinegeri sendiri, baik lagi negeri sendiri" I used to laughed at this saying...quite silly really...why would you say hujan batu is better than hujan emas? I still dunno why...but I feel it. I know that this is true for me now. Whatever it is, whatever I don't like about my country, I still love it. Not saying that I would definitely go back to Malaysia and work and settle there...I still have not decide on that. I guess what I'm trying to say is, Malaysia is my home. In my heart, I would always come home, no matter where I am. I am comfortable there, I am happy there, I feel safe there.

It's just like when you found something that you have been looking for...for so long. Just to find it right in front of you..it has been there..right under your nose for this whole time. And when you found it...it just fell onto your lap, like, it was always meant to be there all this time. You feel at home...where you belong.

I have found my home.
*I got two things on my mind when I say this :p*

Kepada semua rakyat Malaysia...di mana jua berada...
Selamat Menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan yang ke-48.

posted by miniME @ 1:56 PM