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Mirror mirror on the wall

I went to KFC 2 days ago. Ordered a Zinger burger meal. The person who's taking the order asked me, " Kakak nak sit in ke take away?" Erk...whhaa?? Rewind balik...Kakak? Moi? Huh? I glanced over my shoulder in case there's someone worthy of the title kakak standing behind me. There's only a guy in his mid-20s looking very impatient, lapar sangat kot. I watched the girl's face, looks like she's in her mid-20s as well, more or less my age. WHy? WHy call me kakak?

After lunch, I quickly went home and sat in front of my mirror, any wrinkles? mm..maybe around my eyes, my eyebags are HUGE!!! warrgghh!! too much crying, lack of sleep, wayy too much time spent staring at the computer screen..heheh...

Maybe she's right...I do look old, maybe I need to put more makeup? isk..noo....no....why do I mind so much? do I? I never used to mind about getting old and showing it (maybe because I always looked the youngest among my friends..yay!), well...can't stop it. Maybe will stock-up anti-ageing cream for the next 50 years...hahah...one can only try...I won't give up without fighting.

What about ageing gracefully? is there such a thing? I personally don't think so. We have to work at it...take care of yourself, good diet, exercise, enough water, if you want to do extra, take jamu or whatever supplements that are available on the counter. Of course beauty comes from within, have good thoughts, be nice to people, watch your temper, be patient, less sceptical etc. Not so easy eh? with studies/work/relationship /world crisis wherever we go, how can one keep ones' inner beauty? I guess we'll just have to do our best..if desperate(not being judgemental here), there's so many things available if u'r willing to try (and if you got the money); Botox, VitC injection(?), cosmetic surgery, laser treatments etc...you name it, they've got it. Why not? Why not spend your money on yourselves once in a while? I know, I know, easier said than done, I've got no responsibilities yet. I dunno, I'll know when my time comes. Can't say too much yet.

People say I'm a late bloomer. At 23 I have just only started experimenting on clothes, makeups, accessories, all the girlie thingys...oh well..better late then never i guess. Identity crisis? maybe...it takes one big nudge in my life to start all the little things that will make me a somebody later in life.

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Distracted by my MSN and YM, can't remember what I was gonna write just now...should I save as draft and continue tomorrow? nahh..I'll just post it, it wont be the same as writing what I'm thinking at the very moment. I got the sniffles *sniff sniff* , breathing thru my mouth like goldfish (not that they 'breathe' thru their mouth..hehe) . A bit groggy, maybe from all the panadols I'm taking, then again, I did went to sleep at 4 am yesterday (went out with frens for coffee..coffee=insomnia and toilet every 5 minutes). I can't produce a decent sentence at the moment...I need to lie down and sleep.

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Haven't even read my Harry Potter book, bought it 2 days ago. It's still in the shopping bag. Usually I'll be up all nite reading it once I get my hands on it. What is the matter with me? I'm really feeling old at the moment.

posted by miniME @ 8:29 AM