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I want chocolate

I'm writing a 6000-words essay on "The role of religion and spirituality on bereavement" for the past week and it's getting to me, reading so many anecdotes on deaths and grieving and all that. They dissected it until it's so technical...so...systematic. Is there really a 'correct' way to grief? A supposedly healthier way to mourn? Yea yea the reseach showed this and that...why do we have to make sense of everything? Human are not suppose to be predictable. Emotions are what makes us human, why do we want to explain why we're feeling this and that? I know..I know...there are a lot of positive things to be taken from all these research. It's just too deep for me...haha. Don't feel like thinking too deep now. I just don't think it makes any difference on what's happening around me. It's a lot of 'intelligent' discussions...yada yada...but nothing can really be done about it. Ironically now I'm listening to "Bring me to life" by Evanescence. Yes..pleaseeee..bring me back to life...hehehe...I feel like singing on the top of my voice. I feel a bit manic tonight. I think I got a mild bipolar disorder :p or maybe it's just the PMS. Damn mentrual *itch. (I meant witch) haha

I've managed to write almost 5000 words so far, but reading back my essay...seems that I've been making the same point over and over again, just approaching it from different perspectives. Sighhh...I'm hopeless at doing essays...I don't like doing essays...I don't like doing studies or reviews or anything similar. I just want to run around in the hospital poking people and drugging them :p *just kidding...heheh*

Seems that the lure of Galaxy chocolate have won tonight. I ventured out the cold of Scottish winter (it is winter now...right? I mean...it's soooooo coldd) to the little newsagent nearby...bought a pint of milk(only full-fat milk and full-skimmed milk left on the milk shelf....I got the full-fat one...hey...I don't have a choice ok...skimmed-milk??? that's is not an option, what a poor excuse for milk). Then I bought a bar of Galaxy chocolate. Naughty naughty girl. *I was planning to go off chocolate (not including chocolate drink..hehe) until my sister comes to visit me, which is gonna be next week)*

Hmmmm....chocolate....

Now the song "Kiss me" by Sixpence None the Richer came up on my mp3. Love this song. Makes me feel all girly and dreamy. haha.

"Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight

Lead me out on the moonlit floor

Lift your open hand

Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance

Silver moon's sparkling

So kiss me..."

Hmmmm...I feel like wearing a dress and putting a flower on my hair :p

Sighhh....time to 'goreng' some more for my essay.

*hug hug Bee*

posted by miniME @ 9:27 PM