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FOSIT. Feeling Of Something In Throat. had that for 2 weeks now. horrible feeling, plus the feeling of a big hole in my heart, or is it my gut? Need to be more controlled now, he doesn't deserve this much of a mourning. Maybe.
Need to eat lunch, didnt have breakfast this morning. havent had breakfast for 2 weeks now..weird...used to be the most enjoyable meal of the day for me. Now I just dread the morning, couldnt wait for the night to come, and I'll just bury my head under the duvet,wishing tomorrow I'm still the naive, hopeful and optimistic girl that I was a few years ago. Dunno, maybe my innocence was the one that landed me into this trouble, trusting a person wholeheartedly. I took a risk, a risk that I thought I can handle if it goes wrong. Didn't think at that time how my lack of experience will fail my judgement. How do you distinguish the fine line between following your instinct or your heart? What I thought was my instinct at that time might be blinded my hope of finding 'The One' without having to go through what most people have to go through before finding the right one; HEARTBREAK.
So much more that I need to get off my chest..but so little time. Don't have time to nurse this heart, need to let it fibrose quickly, how can you heal without time? Will take care of it later, after exam. Please pray for me...I need it now more than ever.

posted by miniME @ 7:20 PM